What? Why now?
Sunday, January 12th, 2025
Lately, I've had a lot of ideas stuck in my brain. It's the feeling of ambition.
The rush of creating something new, something that only I can do. However, I fail
to take into account that actually requires work. Like, I invest more than
a couple days into it. I seem to not understand this over and over and over and over
again. This well of idea is bottomless, but my energy runs out as soon as I start
polishing them.
2026 has started, and I'm nearing adulthood. I can't make the excuse of "Oh I'm just
a little kid bro give me a break🥺", I must follow through on what I say and promise.
...how do I do that? Do I flip a switch and BOOM! RESPONSIBLE ADULT MODE FULL THROTTLE!
No. I first need to make promise on the small things. Like...
THE INDIE WEB!!!!
I'm pretty sure I first registered for neocities about 2 years ago. I started by cloning
Tofokyo's entire website. God I'm scared of my own genius sometimes.
Obviously this lead me to being messaged by Tofokyo himself, kindly asking me to not clone his
entire website and start learning by myself.
...Then I kind of dropped out of the indie web scene. I worked on the website for a bit after that,
but I never really made a proper website. I'm think it was because I was trying to use Astro to
develop my website because I saw Tofokyo use it (At least I think he does), but it was too complicated
for my chud brain at the time.
I remember a few more attempts to make my website. I took inspiration from Tofokyo, but made it white
so it was super unique and me-core.
I think it's safe to say that I lacked creativity and skill. I used AI constantly to figure out code,
regular just took layouts from other people's websites, and didn't even finish the damn thing in the first
place.
Okay okay, you get it. I am bad at this "art" thing. Why are you bringing this up? Do you like insulting
yourself? Are you some kind of masochist?
Because I want to change! I need to change. I can't live my life being like this anymore. I have
good ideas, I promise! But I need to realize that art is work. It's a process. I need patience.
So, I decided to start from ground zero. To make a website that all me. No copying, no procrastinating,
NOTHING!